It's exhausting

.... to act like everything is okay all the time. To put on a happy face all the time. Like nothing bothers you.

Sometimes I get sick of saying 'okay' and 'fine' and 'no big deal.' Sometimes I want to scream and cry and say it is not okay or fine and it is, in fact, a big deal.

Holding it together, is exhausting. And so it letting it all out when you're by yourself. When you're at home or driving. Especially driving because crying while driving is very, very difficult.

I'm not meaning to through a pity party. I'm not looking for sympathy. I'm just saying.... It's exhausting.